I miss my little one

Today I was listening to my friend at work mothering her sick four year old over the phone.  The little girl woke up not feeling great and has been sleeping alot.  As a mom who knows her little one, she said to her nanny, "When she wakes up just give her Motrin, because she's gonna need it".  I remember those days with Chey, and it makes me wonder if I will ever have the opportunity to have that mothering experience again.  It's not that I miss my child being sick,  it's just that amazing connection a mommy has with her baby.  You can take one look at your child's face across the room and just know how they feel, or if they are uncomfortable....and Swoop..!  Here comes mommy to fix it, and make it all better!  I can still do that a little bit with Chey, but it is different.  She is becoming her own person and figuring out how to make herself comfortable. She is needing me less and less every day it seems.  She will be 13 in 18 days, THIRTEEN.  That makes her a teenager.....ugh.... 

All right Life, here is where it stops, this is not working for me.  I want my baby back!  I know she has to grow up, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. 

I know God has a plan for everything and I will continue to have faith in his plan for me!
 
Commit your way to the LORD; trust also in him and he shall bring it to pass.  Psalm 37:5

Father, thank You for Your faithfulness to answer me when I call for help, even when your plan looks different than my expectations