I'm a Goof!

So I mailed out our initial application for domestic adoption today!  YAY!!  not quite yet.....I was so serious as I made copies of everything, stuffed the originals in the envelope, placed a stamp on the envelope, prayed over the envelope.  Then I realized OH no.....I didn't put the forms in the correct order!  Well, the adoption agency has never had to deal with forms out of order before right? And they would never give a baby to someone who can not put forms in the correct order!  So I neatly cut the envelope order, put them in the "correct" order, and alas....the beautiful perfect envelope was ready to be mailed out.  I joyfully skipped out to the mail box and back to my office, feeling excited and emotional of course.  I have gone about my day on cloud nine knowing that we are taking our first major step in the adoption process. 

Then I started to worry about finances again, but I said to myself, "God's work done his way, will never lack his funds" As I was thinking all of this, I started making a mental list in my head, $50 with the initial application, $550 for the formal application, $2000 homestudy fee......WAIT, $50 initial application fee!!!????? I FORGOT TO PUT THAT CHECK IN MY ENVELOPE TODAY!!!!   I thought I was gonna have a nervous breakdown.  Well, if not having forms in order was gonna make the adoption agency doubt my parenting ability then this will push them over the edge! 

So I called the office manager and I was ready to cry.  Bless her heart, she must have know because she was so sweet and she told me not to snail mail it that she would send me a secure link to pay on line with my credit card.  Whew!!...I think I dodged a bullet...Haha! 

I still have no idea how we are going to make the finances work, but all I can hear is, "I AM WHO I AM".  It is in GOD's hands and he will put all the pieces together as time goes on.  I have complete faith in him. 

A man’s heart plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.  Proverbs 16:9